Tenrai had gone back to the room it was cleaned up now of course and he was in one of the house robes long purple and comfortable laying on the bed resting arm thrown over his eyes. It was one of those days he swore it was. His body still ached terribly. He heard the door open didn't need to look because he could sense it feel who it was. The duel sutra's giving him away as the other walked in and up to the bed. He opened one eye looking at the sight before him. Tired covered in blood no doubt swore and this sad broken 'I just lost my best friend' look on Gungen's face.
Tenrai sighed as he shifted sitting up and reaching for his cigarettes grabbing them he looked over at him and shook his head. "Why do you look like it's the end of the world when you look at me?" Tenrai asked just a touch confused since he hadn't said anything about what happened the night before.
"Because I know......" he answered lowly as he kept looking at him with that same sad, broken look.
Tenrai sighed as he lit the cigarette. "So because you know.........you look like you just lost something? I told you already didn't I? Your not so lucky a bastard." He answered as he inhaled and sighed leaning back. "Or is it the fact that I didn't say anything that bothers you?"
"It's the fact that you didn't say anything, and the thought...that they put hands on you...that they touched you with their filthy hands and looked at you with their eyes...they saw what was mine...they touched what was mine..and I..." he just closed his eyes and went down to his knees, sitting there behind Tenrai, staring at him sadly as blood matted his hair to his face. "I was no where to be found..."
Tenrai sighed. "I didn't say anything because I'm not so petty to make you feel like this." He said shrugging as he as he looked ahead of him aware of how close they were. He turned though and looked at him. "No." He agreed he wasn't. He hadn't been there he had been with Azumi. "What is done is done. There was nothing to be said. I could barely remember there faces only what they left me with. So talking about it would serve no other purpose other then wounding you. One being hurt was enough as far as I was concerned although you figured it out quickly enough."
"I could smell them...all over you, your hair, your clothes..." he said lowly, ignoring the fact that Tenrai had said that he didn't want him to look like this. It was too late now. He was already soaked in their blood. "Petty or not...I want to know when someone hurts you...because I want to be able to be there for you...even if you claim not to struggle with it...if nothing else...let me be there to cry for you..."
Tenrai sighed as he closed his eyes. "You can be there but I don't need tears. This is far from the worst that has been done to me." He said shrugging and opened his eyes. "Being born with these.......doesn't make life easy......more like outcasted. So this........." He shrugged and took another drag it was part of the reason he started smoking. It kept his nerves in check. "This is just another drop in the bucket. I suppose that's why........tears no longer come for me."
"Regardless of what you want, I will cry for you and I will get angry for you...I will do anything for you...because that..." he said lowly as he leaned down and smiled at him. "I just how much I truly am in love with you."
Tenrai sighed as he got up and walked into the bathroom coming back out again in a moment with a bowl and water as well as a rag, he dropped the now spent cigarette into the tray he was using to catch them and sat down. Dipping the rag in the water he shook his head. Love........love he was coming to discover was such a fickle thing. "I can't stop you from crying or getting angry those are your emotions." He said as he whipped the blood splatter from his face already tired of seeing it there. "You can say that even knowing that this body has been soiled by there sin?"
"I can love you no matter what you do or say. Even if this love comes to end with you tearing my heart from my chest..." he answered him lowly as he sat there, letting Tenrai clean his face and took off his blood soaked clothes. "I can love you so long as you can love me for what I've done..."
Tenrai looked at him quietly as long as he could love him for what he had done. He finished cleaning the blood off and sighed. "If your referring to the query of your hunt yes I can forgive you.....if your referring to the 'Tart' well........I don't hate you or do I intend on letting go..........but I want nothing to do with her."
Closing his eyes, he sighed. It was as close to an acceptance he would ever come to, and he knew that, but still...the sting was there, and he would never be able to fully get rid of the twinge of pain he felt each time Tenrai ignored her name. "I'm fine with that....as long as you don't leave...that would be the end of the human side of me..."
Tenrai looked at him quietly a moment or two before sighing and shifting setting the bowl down off to the side and closed his eyes. "I have to return there to preform my duties but that is as far as it will go. I will welcome her as 'Head Priestess' of that Temple and I will give it blessing..........but after that I will not step foot on those grounds again." He could not stand the sight.............of that woman's face.
There it was again...that twinge. Clenching his fists a little, he spoke lowly, "Do what you want..." but what he didn't say was, 'It won't change anything...'
Tenrai looked at him quietly a moment or two. Before lifting the bowl and standing. "I will.......of course so will you. I'll be sure to take better precautions each night you spend sleeping with Azumi........." He said but he wasn't looking at him. An acknowledgement that he knew her name well enough. "So don't come in........not unless you want to be shot. It won't be safe to enter the room until morning." he said calmly as he walked towards the bathroom to get rid of the soiled water.
"I'll take my chances..." he told him lowly, as he looked back at Tenrai, smirking. "I like the thrill of it...the thoughts that you could kill me...the one who guards the sutra of life and death..."
Tenrai looked back at him then and shrugged before walking off. "You've been warned......." He paused at the door frame. "But don't bring her here. I know you go there to her that's enough."